Thursday, February 4, 2016


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By PF:
I have recently been convicted of a sex crime and have decided to take the plea bargain of 18-36 months of probation and registry to the SOR. The crime was committed in a different state in which I am not a resident of and have been told by my lawyer that if I do not want to live in the state in which the crime was committed, that I should have an address of a new residence before sentencing...any suggestions? I have a bachelors degree and have thought about going back to school but after reading many posts about the difficulties of finding jobs, I think that taking out additional loans would be pointless. I really have no preference on a state, I have lost all friends and many family members so going to a new state far away would be just fine. This is a whole new hell for me and I'd appreciate any help I can get.


Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Unjust Punishment of a One Time Offender

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By DG:
My time on the registry has been nothing short of a nightmare that you never wake. My crime was sexual assault of a child, sounds and reads horrible, however, they use to call it statutory rape or Romeo and Juliet case. I was 19 and she was 13, the sister of a friend that her mother was ok with the relationship. The father came home from desert storm and said no to the relationship and we respected that and broke it off. She explained how she felt and what our relationship was, and then I was asked to come down to the police department for questioning, not thinking that I was actually doing anything wrong cause it was consensual, I went down and was honest about everything. I was released with the information that they could have an arrest warrant for me and asked if I would turn myself in or would they have to come and get me, I agreed to the former. Sure enough two weeks later I received a call that stated that they had an arrest warrant for me, so I went down and had to wait 3 hours for the warrant to be issued, they told me that I would be arrested then released to wait for court. 90 days later I was still in jail waiting to be indicted, and sure enough, on that 90th day I was in fact indicted and went to court. I was given a court appointed lawyer (don’t ever do that if you can avoid it, it’s all a numbers game to them and they will trade you for another deal, they use sex offenders as tokens for deals with the AG) that told me that if I didn’t take the deal that they would give me 35 years in prison, and that she was in the courtroom ready to testify. All of which was a lie! I took the deal, 10 years’ probation and 180 day boot camp/work release program. What they didn’t tell me was what I would have to subject myself to while on probation. I had go to weekly meetings at a sex offender treatment program, call myself a rapist and tell my story over and over again sitting in a room with truly sick individuals, I would become physically sick at some of the stories I would be forced to listen to them every week, plus had to pay for the classes and probationary fees monthly all without a job, and if I didn’t pay I would be locked back up for non-payment. So I called my grandparents that was holding my inheritance from my father’s passing, they offered to pay for the probation and classes all up front, and they told him no. because if he did that and they had to revoke my probation for any reason that they would have to refund the money. So, I never paid them a dime, had no way to pay, couldn’t get employment. So I played this for almost 5 years on probation, got kicked out of therapy cause I wouldn’t call myself a rapist or pay the fees, in fact I said in group that they were in fact the rapist, for if you break down the word therapist is says “the rapist”. So, after 4 applications to revoke my probation (ATRP’s) for non-payment, I finally asked the judge to just sentence me to 5 Years of prison and leave me alone. As the law set at that time I would’ve been able to do my time and get out and move on with my life after paying my debt to society. I turned down parole twice stating that I didn’t want to be on paper of any sort, I wanted my life back. However, by the time I got out on November 23, 1998, the laws had been passed for the registry and they made it retroactive as far back a 1970. So, the nightmare continued even after 5 years in prison. I had to register with the city or county and the department of public safety for life, renewing my license every year, having my information available for all to see, my address, phone number, place of employment (not that there has been many other than self-employment), eye color, shoe size, email, any and all on line identifiers. With the registry it makes the 7 and 10 year background check for employment impossible to pass because it keeps it in the system like it just happened. In 2001 I met a fell in love with a wonderful woman of which had two sons that I came to love as if they were my own, their own father was a drug addicted idiot that was not in the picture, so they called me dad. We married in 2002 and everything was awesome, until the schools came out with the gator system that checked for people on the registry. At that time I was working for a retired Major and Mason that did security systems for the government and the local school system, everything was great until they installed that system and ran my id at one of the schools. That got me fired, even after this guy had sent me to get certified for the systems that he installed. I have gone to college for information technology and have two years toward a bachelor’s degree that I stopped because I will never be able to work in that field. I have been forced to create my own businesses and hide in the shadows placing my wife as owner of the companies, while I hide and do all the work from the shadows. Even built a satellite installation business and had 17 people installing for me with dish network, then one day they find out about my conviction cause of the registry and cancelled my contract and that affected 17 families and my own. Then I had to resort back to work that I did as a kid to earn extra money, I started mowing grass, built it up to a property preservation company and was doing awesome had people working for me doing property inspections, mowing empty properties. Had everything going again then bam, the registry cost me that contract as well, so I started working by myself mowing and lifting and has come to a point I am now disabled with a bad acl reconstructive surgery and 3 deteriorated disk in my lower lumbar with two other bulging disk in my back, almost to the point of being stuck at home in a wheelchair, because of the registry I cannot get hired at a less physical job that I was actually going to school for, I have to depend on my wife to work while I wait on Social Security Disability. I can’t even be considered for jobs that are for the disabled.

Over the years, being 19 at the time and 45 now, I have had to lie, manipulate, and cheat to get the basics needed to live. I was never able to volunteer for my own kids’ school for father/son projects, never been able to attend any of their school functions, they had been ridiculed for my past by their friends as to why their father never came to support them. They were never allowed to have friends spend the night for sleepovers, never able to hand out candy on Halloween or even take them trick or treating. It has been a very sad journey for something that was supposed to be a 5 year sentence. The registry is a life sentence with lifelong punishment for not only the offender, but his or her family and friends as well. Especially for single offenders, what ever happen to a second chance? Now I whole hearted believe that if an offender commits another crime they deserve all of these restrictions, and even some of the offenders that their crime was extremely heinous, but not for just dating a friends sister with the permission of the mother.

Life lessons

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By TC:
We'll here it goes. I had a girlfriend and she had a daughter. We meet at our work. We started dating and after awhile we moved in together. There was and incident involving her kid and it blow out of perportion. And it was OK then we had a kid and seven years later everything was going good. Then her daughter started dating this boy her mom didn't like. There was a big blowout about this. She broke up with him and started seeing another boy then she and boyfriend ran away stole a car 5000 grand a diamond ring. Wrote letters saying I molested her which I didn't so then it all goes down hill for me. I got an attorney for close to year or more in a out of court my attorney at the time was mad at me cause I didn't bring my workman's comp case to him. Which I didn't know at that time. So he advised me to take a plea at the time he didn't tell me what I was in for he said it was a felony charge but he didn't tell me all the other rules. So needless to say here I am lost my daughter and everything else and my sentence will never be over. I have never reoffended in eleven years but the rules keep changing and no one wants to help a sexoffender we are all scum no matter what you did or didn't do. Attempted aggravated sexual battery. Is what I took a plea for. The other reason is because my stepdaughter grandparents knew the District Attorney so I thought my chances where slim. If I knew what i was going to have go through I would have do things differently. I have never failed a polygraph. I was so stupid. I wish I could change all this I want people to see me as a human being. Thanks for reading this.

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Shame, Isolation and Banishment

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By James:
There is so much I've learned about these laws over the past five years that I'd like to unlearn but can't. One feels a bit like Kafka's Samsa; one day you are traveling salesman and the next day, a giant insect whose family in the end is relieved that you died. Perhaps Kafka's "The Trial" and Joesph K. is an even more fitting description of what this experience is like.

I was convicted of a non-touch offense and given many years of supervised release plus the registry. Of course, there isn't a day that goes by in my life that I don't regret what I did. I literally threw my life away and I had a professional career and life which is gone, forever. I'm not qualified for most welding/mechanical jobs that most sex offenders are forced to get so I remain unemployed. I did not end up going to prison and am extremely grateful for that. But even though polygraphs and many experts have shown and agreed I have never physically touched anyone and I am not a risk to do so, that fact will never be believed by the general public because of the public registry. Since my conviction I've read many people actually prefer prison to life on the outside being a registered citizen. Before being brandished from my community, that statement might not have made any sense to me but because I'm living it, I don't doubt it. Neighbors who shun you because you lower their property values, former friends and associates who pretend that you don't exist, having an "elephant in the room" that is always there no matter who you are talking to, fearing that any day a new buffering zone restriction will be passed in your state forcing you to move, watching people look at you as though you are Frankenstein's monster despite the fact that you know the truth about yourself.

Let me say this: We haven't reached the phase of genocide that Hitler's Final Solution provided for in the killing of 6 million innocent people, but we are moving in that direction. That may sound like an extreme statement but everyday as I watch more laws being passed, I am forced to come to that conclusion. Jews were not put in concentration camps on day number one of the Nazi regime. It escalated. Don't believe me? It's actually happening.I look at "Miracle Village" in Florida as being like a modern day Jewish Ghetto in Warsaw Poland. The implication is that these people need a colony of their own outside of the general community because God forbid they may contaminate or poison the community by their mere presence. Doesn't this sound pretty similar to another well known ideology? This really should not be a surprise; many politicians have made off-the-cuff remarks (and not so off the cuff) about how nice it would be if penal colonies for sex offenders existed. And it isn't just happening in Miracle Village. Clustering is happening all over the country, especially in more restrictive states. Certain cities, towns and municipalities can pass ordinances to keep sex offenders out. The Massachusetts Supreme Court recently compared these laws to Japanese Internment Camps. Do I personally worry about how this escalation can effect me in the future? I don't know how I could be human and not worry about it. It's a fact that's staring me in the face that I'd rather ignore but can't.

I could write a polemic here based on my experiences and research but alas I will cut it short. I just wanted to get in my two sense. I hope other people can resonate with how I feel.

23 years of mayhem

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By Bill:
I am from Utah. 23 years ago I plead guilty to attempted aggravated sexual abuse of a child. The penalties of the law for pleading guilty were laid out. I would have to "Register" at the Courthouse once a year for 3 years. 3 years parole. Judge said in court I was looking at doing considerably less than 5 years. Everything that was thrown at me is what is referred to as a "Legal Fiction" I had no idea they could just change the law anytime they wanted without any due process of the law, and that I would become subject to those laws or I would have fought for reduced charges. I did 11 years in prison. The time on Parole changed to 5 years. I was violated 3 different times on "Technical Violations" None of the violations had anything to do with a sex offense. Then in 2008 when I was just ready to get off my 5 year parole I was informed it was now ten years parole. So after being out for 7 years they decide because of a traffic violation that went to warrant I needed to go back to prison. Adult probation and parole recommended 4 years for the violation!!!! Lucky the people whom I love, neighbors included showed up and fought to get me released. I did 6 months. I now have another 10 year parole to do. I was convicted in 1993. This nightmare is never going to end for me. I took a polygraph test so that my granddaughters could live with me. They asked me every sick question possible and I passed 100%. Now that the system has turned prisoner for profit, and they use sex offenders to extort money from the taxpayers by scaring them, I am doomed!!! Oh Utah just created a bunch of reform laws that would help me. But I don't fall under them because of the date of my conviction. But the laws that hurt me I fall under even though it was not a law when I entered my Plea? Funny huh, For some readers I am sure it is. This looks like a good website. I hope people will educate themselves to the truth about everything that is going on. Its a industry now for a lot of people. They depend on sex offenders committing crimes so they can make a living. It's very sad, one of the saddest things is now is they are throwing children in the checkout cart. It really does boil down to money. Taxpayer Money! So the worse they can make all sex offenders look, the more cash they can pull out of all your wallets. True story